JUst watch on tv

Just watched the live coverage of SEVEN LAST WORDS on tv channel 7 at home with my daughter today. I am touched of the message. I made it sure that mistakes if ever must not be repeated again. I am reminded to be more prayerful rather than questioning God why its me having these problem.
Every year, me and my kids always attended SLW in the church whatever how hot summer and no passenger jeep it was. This time i feel guilty for not going to church but hoping that God understand my situation specially the reason behind of not going to church on previous Sundays, instead i just watched live coverage of CCF service on tv.